You are missing from me

Silently I watch the world and time pass by  

Slow motion and fast forward

Disjointed from reality

The world lacking in coherence and continuity

Ignorant to my anguish and agony

The deafening silence, the absence of your essence

The abyss of bedlam stretching before me


The tightening of my throat suffocating me

Yet the earth keeps turning

The people keep moving

The sun is still rising and setting

The ocean ebbing and flowing, yet

I am frozen and tormented by the last goodbye


Denial now routine protection from the encroaching lunacy

That threatens to paralyse and consume me

Constantly on the brink of being overpowered


Bound to your memory in isolation

You are missing from me.


Thoughts invading my awareness chaotically and without warning

In conflict with the instinct to oppress

Emotion threatening to vanquish my facade

Swords of reality swinging and crashing toward me

I am unarmed, and defenceless

The disguise threatening to slip from my body revealing my truth

Exposed and naked

Raw and vulnerable

You are missing from me

You are missing

From me.

© Christie Marie Kruger 2013


About Christie Marie Ginja Kruger

Orenda (huron)The power of human will to change the world. Set up as an opposing force to fate or destiny. If powerful forces beyond your control are trying to force a particular outcomes, orenda is a kind of vocalised summoning of personal strength to change this. A giant child, trying to find my purpose, without losing sight of all things beautiful. View all posts by Christie Marie Ginja Kruger

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