In the midst of chaos and disorder, I find a quiet place;
That place is you.
You don’t know that and you probably never will.
Sometimes on a day where I feel I am swimming aimlessly in an ocean of confusion;
You are a lighthouse.
When I begin to fail in humility and start climbing on to my high horse of self-absorption and self-importance;
You remind me of who I really am and who I strive to be.
You don’t know that and you probably never will.
There are days when I am filled with remorse and anguish and I spend all my time looking backward at bygones that can’t be changed, that I don’t understand, filled with “what-if” and “why”, when I distort the memories and fail to realistically see the truth that I somehow want to transform into a lost perfection;
You call me to the present, to the moment and remind me I am not alone.
In times where I feel my frustration rising and the negativity around me and within me threatens to swallow me whole and spit me out as a angry nasty troll, you fill me with quiet laughter, and hidden smiles and you compel me to catch sight of the magnificence and beauty that can be found around me;
You don’t know that and you probably never will.